4 Days Post-New Year Resolutions

It's one of those rare moments when I write the content before writing the title, because I honestly have no idea what the main point of this post will be all about. 

Yep, I'm already eighteen. Currently in my second year, second semester in college. Everyday, I always feel myself being lazy as ever. It's 2016 already and my habits are still unchanged. I feel bad about it, but what makes it worse is that I know myself that I don't make any effort to be better. All these futile efforts to change doesn't really do much because I, myself, isn't ready to change. Now that I've hit this part of the page, I think I already know what this post will be all about. I think I fail as a human to sort out my New Year's Resolution before New Year but meh, whatever, I'd do it now; I will write my New Year's Resolution 4 days after New Year (because that's how I roll)

1.) It may seem hard to believe, (and upon writing, it is still hard to believe that these words are coming out of me like whO AM I AM I POSSESED HALP ME) but I will lessen my cheating during exams

don't judge me; i am a normal college student who sometimes copy others' answers during exams 

2.) Never be late again

Did you know that I missed out one of my exams because I arrived 2 hours late? I am still praying I won't fail because of that missed exam /sigh

3.) Never lie again

I'm not even gonna bs this, yes, I do lie. I think I did lies in all colors and intensity and I confessed on those during Christmas eve. I did penance and I do not want to sin again so yeah, less lying.

4.) Speak words that will never hurt

Sometimes I got to be mindful of all the stuff I'm saying because I swear I talk non-stop and without filter.

5.) Go to church always

Because prayer is best done inside the church

6.) DO NOT BE LAZY ANYMORE!! LESS CELLPHONE TIME

Aaaaaaaand that's it! You all should do your New Year's Resolution, too, who cares if it's 4 days or 4 months after New Year? If you wanna change something, start now. 

The Day Before I Turn 18

Wow, it's been 18 years!? Scary how time flies so fast. From the fat kid who loves to eat McDonald's all day, I've turned into a fat teen who still loves to eat McDonald's all day.  I've made a lot of fucked up and compulsive decisions in life yet here I am, still not in prison because I'm not legal yet. From now on, it will be a constant struggle to continually do fucked up and compulsive decisions without getting caught. 

Why are we even so afraid of prison? When you're writing a journal entry the day before you turn 18, you slowly start to realize how your comfort zone is the prison that bonds you with pleasures within your reach. The day you turn 18, there's this prison, the keeper of law, that's preventing you from doing things outside of your previous prison.

Why are we even associating happiness with breaking the rules? Because our mind is set to think that way. Doing mundane things bores us so much, we always try to find ways to thrill our nerves, to heighten our senses, to feel that rush of adrenaline. 

Why are we even correlating the term 'thrill' with adventures that can risk our lives? Because people's definition of adventure is 'danger'. But have you not experienced seeing a bird hatching from its shell? The thrill you get when you see the egg slowly crack and turn into life. As a child, have you not seen an airplane from your bedroom window? The trail of light slowly making its way to their destined place. You ever had a crush or a person you can't get out of your mind? Every millisecond you see their face, that pang in your heart, isn't that what thrill is all about?

You see, there are different ways on how to be happy. 

The key is appreciating every little things around you. 

Be contented. And always seek to be better. 

In terms of emotions, feelings and mind. Always seek to be better.